I wish that I could bottle up the feelings I am experiencing right now and reproduce them at my will. My spirits are high and I would like them to remain that way. There is something about the optimistic euphoria that surrounds the blossoming of possibilities.
My birthday is next week. I always go through this lull time right before my birthday. I suppose it is because I am getting older. Examining the state of my life. Wondering where I went wrong and in which ways can I improve. Accepting that the past is the past. Learning each day to live in the present while setting myself up for a better future.
THANK GOD FOR GROWING UP!
While I sometimes long for the fearless energy of my youth, I also deeply appreciate the lessons I’ve learned in communication, faith and patience. I see my growth and I love that about myself.
Going gray is one of the coolest things that has ever happened to me. It’s a family trait. Many of the women in my family gray early. Some of them so much so that they where mostly gray by the time they turned 40.
It’s so interesting because I feel like it is direct evidence that I am still growing. Like, when you go through puberty, you know certainly, physically that you are going through life changes. So before my eyes, streaks are forming, the ‘salt’ is slowly integrating with the ‘pepper’.
It’s not a mainstream look. Many people try to convince me to color it to its orginal ‘deep, almost black brown’. I’m cool. I like it. Scratch that, I love it. I embrace it as a right of passage. If I ever color it, it will of course be because I got the notion to do so, not because of external prodding.
I do not buy the idea that the gray makes me look older. Personally, I feel I do not look much different then I did in high school, save the obvious progression of my swag. I was blessed with just enough melanin to get in on the ‘black don’t crack’. Practicing wellness maintains my youthful appearance.
Totally off subject: I need a photographer, a videographer, and a literary agent, ASAP. I am ready to seriously flex my inner techy. INTERACTIVE: sounds fun!
Be sure to include me in your thoughts of blessed energy and know that I am meditating on our collective ascension. I appreciate my audience and I encourage your input. 4sho ~ you are my inspiration.
another day, another day, another day…
the beat goes on
